Keep wandering ..

Am i a good friend? Am i good enough as a bestfriend? **please tell me!

I do have alots of friends and i do have bestfriends. I treated them all like what i treat to the others. No special treat specifically. All same. when i feel you guys are the one who can i called as a friend, then you are my friends!

*once you are my friends, you will always be my friends .. i love all my friends ..

When i feel that i have give all out as a friend, always there for my friends, share their problems, give a shoulder for them to cry on and always available for friends.

... BUT, i feel that some of them seems dont see me as their friend yet. They IGNORE ME .. I was like, they dont keep my words! I always said that "im always available for them" but still, i know, they dont come to me. They come to the others! they dont tell me, they think i dont know BUT, i know what you dont know.

*you know what i feel? I know you dont bother to know what i feel. I FEEL HURT. Its likely that i dont have friends.

When i have problems, when i need friends, when i need someone to share my story and when i need a shoulder to share my sadness .. Sometimes, i dont know where to go, i dont know who am looking for, i dont know which friend i should search for ..

Somehow oneday when i really need friend, i just texted my chatterz which is now my friend, i confessed what i feel. I feel really broke at that time.
He said ' why dont you find your friend? Or you bestfriend '
Then i said ' i dont want to disturb them. They have their own business '
Then he said ' eh, if they are your friends, they are always beside you whether when you're happy or when you are down. If they weren't, DONT CALLED THEM YOUR FRIEND '

I love my friend with all of my heart, cos for me, friends is no 2 of my family. most of my time are with friends, i share, i laugh with, i crazy with and everything with friends and that is why i like to be friend with all of them who are pleasure be my friends ..

This lately i feel really broke but i cant tell what i feel to my friends instead i told kaka mimi ='( i dont want to tell my friend, once i tell, they are likely dont want to hear me, i know, its the same story, again and again and i think they are getting BORING already! and thats hurt to hear over again and again 'owh', 'sabar' . I need someone who can inderstand me and YOU ARE NOT ONE OF THEM.

Should i called you my friend now? Or should i think about what he said?

* friends is someone who beside you whenever you need, always available for you, always there for you and keep asking you whether you are good or not. Someone whose beside you in whatever condition you are.

If they come when you are happy only and they are disappear when you have a problems or sad, then you SHOULDNT called them a friend.

>> where are you now for me? WHERE? WHERE? WHERE?
If you think im like a rubbish, there you go .. Eventhough im hurt, you will definitely dont care!

will be post next.

life must go on ..

Apabila satu pintu kebahagian tertutup,
pintu yang lain terbuka
tetapi..
sering kita terpaku terlalu lama
pada pintu yang tertutup itu,
sehingga kita tidak melihat
pintu yang lain
yang dibukakan untuk kita.

kita harus bangkit
untuk membuka pintu
yang masih terbuka itu ..

** so for the others yg putus cinta, cinta putus, kana putuskan or memutuskan, WE ALL DESERVE HAPPINESS .. dont let it down our self. the world is not over yet just because we fail in love! we can try again and again but not to do the same mistakes ya, REMEMBER your MISTAKES, take it as LEARNT.

everyone who fall in love must feel the suffer but its not actually as long as we know how to treat our partner. and NEVER give just a sweet promises like what people nowadays do! you can love, you can fall but dont be blind just because that love, be rational, be insane, be mature and finally, BE YOURSELF.

* fall for you is the best thing i ever feel, but without you in my heart, my life full of misery and loneliness .. (someone said) YAKAH? i dont think so. so i live my life happily without so much burden, i have FAMILY, i have FRIENDS and i have YOU ..

till here, will be posting next ..

WITH LOVE (L)

madah

*dlm simpanan

Kadangkala orang yang paling mencintaimu adalah orang yang tak pernah menyatakan cintanya padamu kerana orang itu takut kau berpaling dan menjauhinya. Dan bila suatu masa dia hilang dari pandanganmu, kau akan menyadari dia adalah cinta yang tidak pernah kau sedari ..

Mungkin benar tatkala kita kehilangan barulah kita menyedari. Mungkin benar saat kita terluka barulah kita mengerti. Mungkin benar bila kita rasakan rindu yang sangat dalam barulah kita tahu seberapa besar makna dan erti seseorang bagi kita ..

at last ..

Today, i just got what i really need from anyone, HAHA. you know what is it? i tell you ah *shhhhtttt.. HAHA, nothing much la, it was just, i already UNDERSTAND my maths topic =D YEHAAAA .. at last!

Early in the morning but not too la, my cuzie came to my house and teach me. THANKS cuzie! CO-ORDINATES GEOMETRY is the slowest topic that i can catch up, oh GOD, it takes me about 2 weeks to understand it and only TODAY i know how to do it, imagine it *uhuk uhuk. its not that hard actually BUT its all about i need more explaination and better understanding and so for the future, its easy for me though and i can do it by my self =D *i hope so, haha. tomorrow, cuzie will come again to explain me for another new topic. yeah, WE are one step forward from the others and that's why its hard for me to ask my friends as they haven't go with that topic yet.

okay2, forget about maths (well actually i cant do that, still maths in my head) lets talk about what i did today.. after having my study time, in the afternoon till night, i went shopping, HAHAHA. as my parents business finished, we went to the mobile's things shop *apakan! at first, i want to buy only my casing but it was turn out into a BIG SHOPPING when we bought new HP, haha. too much talk, too much thinking and so we were exhausted which then we landed at JOLLIBEE *yummyyy..

*as a result, now i got **HEADACHE, huhuhu..

while at the shop tadi, my sista was very excited to show me a COUPLE KEYCHAIN. to fulfill her eager, so i follow her and found, yeah it was very awesome! she bought me one set, the pink one for her (of course!) and the blue one for me, so we are like, hmm hahaha TWO but actually ONE! the chain means that we love each other *i think so =p haha. and i was thinking to buy one, but .. i don't have anyone to give, then i said to my sista " one day if i have BF, i will buy it for US! " hahaha. ONEDAY yeah ..

till here first, will be posting up next ..

p/s: for IJAM, hahaha thanks finally you read up me here =p *cheayy, special dedicated (jgn perasan ah =p=p)


WITH LOVE FOR YOU ALL READERS =D

yehaaa !

yesterday, 24th march 2010

Finally, i met them! all my beloved friends and yeah, ILOVE them all =D dont ya see it? =p i do miss them alot and yesterday was the day when finally i met them =S UNFORTUNATELY, they were alots of them who didnt come, you guys made me dissapointed bebeh ='( but i cant forced you guys .. SO, thanks a lot for the comers!! ILOVEYOU lah ..

people who was coming were ; Hakim ( da first one who come very early, GUESS WHAT? haha around 6 yo =p, haha ), Matin, Asfa ( first lady =p ), the most craziest gang in da home which are Syafiq, Dilah, Piee, Saiful and Minan, Zilah, Fatin wajihah, Habib, Kirah, Dibah, Ain and Faj ( the last one, hehe ) ..

*for the others, i will always love you all too and miss ya! BUT, hmm kinda upset me you guys nada .. and im sorry to say that you guys RUGII =(

and and, HAHAHA they were all crazy last night, haha like what *my parents was not at home! BUT they were! they were awesome and i cant say much here cos they all made me happy ever last night and you all were really craziest friends, HAHAHA. Eventhough i got fever and i was like weak all the way but as they came, i was become HYPER myself, haha. thanks friends * oh GOD, i cant stop from saying thanks to them.

*you know what? someone was lie to me, idk why he must lie with me. he said differently with what he said to my friends. OMG, whats wrong with him. like my sista said, IF HE DIDNT COME THOUGH, THE SHOW STILL GO ON LA !

arghh! forget about him!!!! * i still have the others, HAHAHA. habib datang! hahaha, porengge ..
we all took so many pictures, hahaha. FUN, crazy, HYPER, sporting, LOL, happiness and ETC come into ONE PACK, hahaha *like what!

okay la, till here first, will update next time!

*GUYS, tag me ah =p=p, HAHAHA, *mcm bnr!

hmm hmm, will be posting the pictures when i learn how to post the pict on the blog, so sorry IM LAME, haha yeah thats ME !

okay la, THANKS again to all of my friends who came to my house. i really appreaciate it and never forget every moment with you guys, the CRAZIEST FRIENDS EVER =p=p

Will be missing you guys out there and the other also =s
*DONT FORGET ME YEAH, PROMISE??

with love for you all (L)

Heyhey =D whats up!

OMG, none of my hw finish yet, haha. But almost everyday i never sit without a book ya, i do read textbook to have better understanding. yet, i dont or maybe cant understand the mathematics textbook cos until now, i cant do the homework my self *uhuk uhuk ='( i bet, i need some help from my friends but none of them are in the same topic as me yet, so im struggling in finding someone who can help me, when finally i asked help from my cuzie and she said YES, **yeyeye!

*she will come only in a moment =D and im waiting for her now, haha. Hope, i can finish it by today cos i cant be relax keep thinking my maths IN MY HEAD *like i do think abt the guy, HAHA.

Guess what? Im going to meet my friends tonight, ahaha. CANT WAIT BEBEH, haha. I miss them alot and thats why i invited them to come to my house. Hope they can come and enjoy tonight =D =D

*for those who will not coming tonight, they are mean dont want to see me *uhuk uhuk, haha kiddingss bebeh =p

I will look forward for those whose coming tonight, CANT WAIT !!!

*LOVE YA ALL =D
Keep posting you whats going on next. Tata ..

MP interview ..

today in memory ..

GUESS WHAT? i just back home at probably around 6.30pm today after having interview with the MPs which was ended at 5.45pm.

it was very tiring day though but, yeah i have to sacrifice for it =). i was at the audi around 2 o clock but it was just started at around 3.30, if im not mistaken lah .. so lame ! HAHAHA. from there were too many people until there just five of us who was still waiting for the interview, OMG.

and we were very NERVOUS ! hahaha. then, everyone who was came out from the audi will have to answer our questions, HAHAHA. *kesiiian.

i was the fourth last to be interviewed. when my name was just called, thank God .. (im really exhausted already)

but ..

as i move on to the MPs desk, everything was changed! i didnt even felt the nervousness at all. it was like, hmm okay, like normal talk =D

*now, it was the conversation..

at first, bagi salam ofcos =) (.. sit)

YDP started to ask questions ..

# what do you feel now?
- fine ( with big smile, HAHAHA)

#which one do you prefer? malay or english?
-(then i answer .. ) MALAY! *hahaha kes takutkan speaking =p

the MPs was very friendly la and i like them!

#okay, now, perkenalkan dirimu?
- (haha you know me already, so i dont have to mention it again, kan kan kan ?? =p=p haha )

#english apa? 'O' ?
- oh yeah =)

then here is some of the questions being asked to me.. AND i probably will not display all my answers, sorry, hahaha.

+ kenapa kau mau jadi mp?
- (you know whats my answer??? hahaha) hmm, ONE of the answer, DARI HATI. *hahaha, out aku ah =p

+ apa yg kau ada untuk jadi MP?
- (and guess what apa ku jwb?) one of it, MESRA ALAM. *lagi tiaa .. HAHAHA.

while the YDP yg betanya, the other two was writing something on the paper and surveying my CV * i think.

+ apa yg ptt ada arah seorang ketua?
+kau taukan, kalau MP ani slalu aher balik apa then are you okay with that?
+ sekiranya, SEKIRANYA *haha majaal* kau inda kana trima MP, department mana kan kau pilih?
+ you know MP ani plg tinggi kan, so apa MP ani bagimu?
+ kan jadi MP ani, bkn pasal sajakh atau apa ah? then i ans, BUKAN EH.
+ kan jadi NYDP ah? okay .. =) kenapa?

.. NOW, tani masuk arah skenario ah (ydp said)

^ sekiranya kau ada suka org bnr2, suka bnr2 ni, then ea ada suka org lain and kau heartbroken lah, frust apa. and resultmu U saja cg2 pun heran and ur dad frust. apa ko buat? dahtu at that time ko ada test, assigment, hw menimbun, ada lagi tasks, kraja kana bge, then apa ko buat?? ^
*then i answerlah ..

diam kajap ..

(fuhh, na bth g kan abis sulnya..) continue ..

+ inda nervous? NO, hahaha. *ydp angguk2.
+ adakan di tnya? * hahaha kes nada soalan lagi =D then i said, nada.

ydp : okay, nanti kalau ada apa2, liat saja arah noticeboard ah ..
me: okay ..

end of interview.

waaah, they were so awesome and very friendly though ..

interview,
date: wednesday, 17 march 2010
place: auditorium
interviewed by : YDP, the secretary and one sister =D

* i hope to be accepted and can be one of the MPs. and this will be sweet memory for me as this is my first ever interview with other people =D and thanks for the MPs for the very welcome ..

MPs: you guys never lack smile and pleasure us .. i was very glad to be in front of you this afternoon and thank you .. =D * majal aku muji drg ah, hahaha. they were kind wah and peramah..

catch you later =D..