fuhh.

hey guys, assalamualaikum =pp (haha) least but not last, i want to say "selamat hari raya aidilfitri maaf zahir dan batin" special dedicate for all my bestfriends and friends out there =D

Omg, last night was the very tired day ever when people keep coming to my house coninously, haha. We, all my siblings, like, no one could escape from doing work all the time. Well, now i could say that 'we work fast and furious' haha. At the kitchen was like, smua beampaian, haha, i think im going to ask babu to make dapur more bigger, haha.
We worked from 8 in the morning till night. Unforunately i still having exam in the middle, imagine how concentrate i was, haha. Then when i came home, we gave surprise to my youngest brother for his birthday.

Woaaah, i come to my last exam this wednesday, yeyeye! But its not gonna be the final of our work for the lower six, cos we still have to carry on study for the upper besides i still have AS level exam end of this year.

*uhuk uhuk* i got stomach ache now.

Pertanyaan: kemana perginya kwn2ku ani kn? Zilah, ain, asfa, zean, hmm. Hard to find them, betapuk pakah.

Okaylah, have to go now. We are going to have raya in KB today, yeyeye.

summer desire.

Ilove this couple in summer desire drama. Awesome. Handsome and beautiful =D ilove them. Barbie hsu and peter ho.

Better watch this movie. You wont regret it.

drama

taiwan drama that I love now, Summer Desire.

At first, i was like 'eh bida jua crita ani' but, in the middle, once i watched it, it was okay and made me want to watch it again and again. It made me addicted. When i supposed to sungkai at restaurant now, i prefer to stay at home and watch this awesome story =D well, this friday gonna be the lat episode and still dont know if i could watch it. Dpends wether we are going to celebrate raya this friday or saturday.

Okay okay, back to the drama. The actor and the actress are, peter ho, barbie hsu and hua xio ming( am not sure the name, haha)
The story is, barbie with peter is in relation since at high school but then, because of peter behaviour somehow buat barbie sasak and putuskan ea. By the time barbie ptuskn, peter was driving and accident and unfortunately, he was lost his memory. Since then, barbie dont know what happen to peter and start to close with hoa. They are quiet romantic. Barbie think that peter do all the bad things to her and her close one. She start to hate peter.
When peter get his memory back, he start to remeber barbie and ask everything abt her. But his secretary said that shes the one who made him involve in accident. From that, peter want to bls what she've done. But it turns around when barbie agree to marry with him. Life start to change. From forceful turn into peaceful. Well, peter is very rich and he can do everything to make barbie happy eventhough he have to donate his kidney to barbie's brother. When her bro die, barbie lost his life and turn into quiet. Peter do everything for her. He have to see hao close with his wife just to makesure his wife would give any reaction. He try to hide his hurt. Just for the one he love.

Just when you watch it, you'll know the story better. You must feel it cos its very touch. This drama is awesome!!!!

Love peter ho, haha.

i need miracle.

surely, i need miracle now to end my sadness,

Pretending not having a big burden, made me feel more suffer and suffer.

Tell me who doesnt have any problems? Anyone?

I still could stand without someone special called boyfriend.
maybe, i could be strong without friends.
Surely, im dying without family.

I wish im strong enough to follow their games. Am hoping to make it over but they just dont make it for real. Am alone to go through this time where they seems to ignore a person who they didnt care anymore. Whatever you guys do, no matter what, i let this tears drop everytime you want, i keep this hurt just to see your smile, your laugh, i hide this sickness not to allow people know how heavy, how big, how painful my burden is. If just you know that your laugh, you happiness is my sadness cos am not with you guys. Am alone!

If i am given 3 wishes, i want ;
I want my sister,
I want my brother,
I want to turn back into the past!

I just remember this quote,
'Allah tidak akan menguji hambaNya di luar kemampuan'
'Allah menguji hambanya, bererti ia sayang'
*amiiiiiiinn ='(((

Still have bapa, babu.

So painful.

jealousy come over me!

omg, feel it for real.

Love is undescribable? *lets laugh HAHAHAHA. Its true for some condition. Saying 'love you forever' ? Since i realised, i would prefer people say ' i love you TILL THE END '

Please dont say forever if at the end, you still come to putus! Cos we dont know till when tani sama2. Anything could happen, so we dont have right to predict or made decision that we are to be with the one we love till dead *like sometimes people used to say!

Instead, if we say TILL THE END, we show that we just, just go with the flow. Till when we stop, we will accept it and we didnt owe anythings to our partner. When it comes to the end, thats the end and stop. We cant fight with the fate.

I told one of my friend lastnight,,
How long last is the reationship is not important, it is all abt how we treat, we cares and try to introspect each other.

*well, actually, am not sure what am talking abt, am sorry, HAHA.

*ilovemydreamboy.

its okay guys!

They were all who came yesterday, for them, thank you so much and you made it for me, THANK YOU.
Kirah and fizah, they are the loyal one, haha. Ilopyou! Piee, minan, sepol, syapik, habib =D hadi and duan, this is the first time ya, haha. Dilah eventhough aher n ngaleh p sanggup jua ko dtg, thanks! And hakiiim, wlaupun boreng ko nada p thanks for the sedekah, thats mean ko ingat kami. THANK YOU SO MUCH GUYSSS.
*well, actually i was very dissapointed =( nvm, i cant force anybody. If they really into me, they would come.
But but, hahaha we really have fun last night. Siuuuuuk with them, hahaha.

'friend is everything'
'the one who always beside us when we up or down'
'the one who share everything with us'
Is that word still work kh? Hmm, i would rather say this, "im not sure now" i have been through a tough-depress-down-ever day lately, but friends that i think would come to hear me, to make me feel better, somehow i dont where to find them. Feel pity for me. I try to keep it myself, but it made me cry almost eveyday. This is such a burden for me. I supposed to share it to someone i trust and comfort it but now, i just share it to someone who could hear me, anybody. I dont know where to find them, or am the one who didnt find them or maybe, they dont bother to know abt me. Am not sure. Feel broke.

Friends happiness is mine but idk if my sadness would be their sadness too. Am not sure if they feel the same way as i am. Idk if they really want to know abt me. And idk if they would care of me like they used to.

*been in very tough depressing situation.